tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19374727.post9183233972491314956..comments2023-12-21T04:25:11.724-06:00Comments on party girl's new world: Polaroid snapshotsParty Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03803387514872401131noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19374727.post-56635073648284589212008-09-17T22:44:00.000-05:002008-09-17T22:44:00.000-05:00limpy: I really don't like taking meds. Drugs, yes...limpy: I really don't like taking meds. Drugs, yes. Meds, no. <BR/>I typically have a weird side-effects to sleeping aids/pain pill type of meds. They either knock me out to the point of oblivion or I feel like I'm on speed. <BR/>However, at this point, maybe a few "oblivion" nights are called for. Because yes, sleep does put the world in a whole other perspective.<BR/><BR/>I appreciate the rooting. A girl likes a cheering section.<BR/><BR/>..and jealous on the Supersuckers viewing. It's been years since I've seen them.<BR/><BR/><BR/>ptg: you brought tears to my eyes. I appreciate your comforting words.<BR/><BR/>I've thought about discountinuing the blog a few times over the past year, but I still find it incredibly theraputic. <BR/><BR/>Theraputic to read others thoughts, opinions, feelings.<BR/><BR/>Theraputic in terms of being able to write, share, and be honest regardless of if there are any readers. <BR/><BR/>Theraputic when there are readers and they share their kind words, humourous thoughts, and cheering section with me.<BR/><BR/>So, I think I'll be here for awhile.<BR/><BR/>On the sleep front: I have a HUGE cost/benefit test tomorrow. Not excited and trying to not be worried about it. I've studied all I can and that's all I can do. Just my future.<BR/><BR/>I set-up a therapy appointment for Friday, should prove emotional as I plan to dive deep. I am very tired as of this moment, let's hope it lasts though the night....and through the rest of the year and then some.Party Girlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03803387514872401131noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19374727.post-8342162803154908792008-09-17T21:35:00.000-05:002008-09-17T21:35:00.000-05:00As for the sleep - I know that when I am the most ...As for the sleep - I know that when I am the most bothered, as well as in the mood of Fuck It, I'm Tired, And I Don't Want To Deal With It Anymore - I don't sleep. Period. And now that you've taken the first step (meeting with said counselor) it might be why you slept well. And the fact that no one has set up anything with you, or gone further in the process, might be why you're not sleeping now.<BR/><BR/>It's a theory, not fact, but it makes sense to me.<BR/><BR/>I wish I could reach across the screen and give you a big giant hug. And tell you that you are most definitely worth something, and most definitely worthy of love, and most importantly, DEFINITELY making an impact on people. I know the blogging world doesn't "count" when compared to Brazil or South America (as a whole), but you do make a difference.<BR/><BR/>To me, you do.<BR/><BR/>And I hope, if nothing else, that you get a little more sleep knowing that.ptghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10276768752791796870noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19374727.post-69630430769934167532008-09-17T11:57:00.000-05:002008-09-17T11:57:00.000-05:00I've had insomnia for the last month. Came out of...I've had insomnia for the last month. Came out of the blue. It does not, obviously, match what you're dealing with, and you should talk to someone medically before following my advice, but Ambien works for me and allows me to get 7-8 hours of sleep. And as you say, a good night's sleep makes a lot of difference in one's outlook.<BR/><BR/>Good luck; I'll be rooting for you.<BR/><BR/>And I will add that I saw our mutual buddies The Supersuckers this past weekend. Good rock 'n roll does a lot to improve a mood as well.limpy99https://www.blogger.com/profile/06975672608204212282noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19374727.post-49320788711106167722008-09-17T00:23:00.000-05:002008-09-17T00:23:00.000-05:00Jay: Thank you, Babydoll. That's exactly what I ne...Jay: Thank you, Babydoll. That's exactly what I needed to read before heading off to bed.<BR/><BR/>I am incredibly introspective, always have been. I want to know the "why" behind something and why I react to it the way I do in all aspects of my life. I need to figure it out.<BR/>I can't imagine how others aren't introspective...or more to the point, why others aren't. But I think maybe it's just something you are. Like, someone who is outgoing vs shy, ect.<BR/><BR/><BR/>One thing I should have added with the post:<BR/><BR/>I started therapy last week. It was just a meet and greet session to decide who I will be matched with. A.k.a. who is best suited to deal with my level of problems. (I got the feeling the gal I met and greeted with was a tad overwhelmed) I was hoping to hear by today to have something set-up by Friday, but no such luck.<BR/><BR/>After getting several days of great sleep last week, it put a lot of things into perspective. I know lack of sleep is a big reason for a lot of this past year and how I have been feeling.<BR/><BR/>On yet another note, for some reason I have not slept well for the past week. Yes, it is beyond frustating. Sleep is one of the goals I have developed for myself.Party Girlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03803387514872401131noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19374727.post-64477675782923528472008-09-16T22:34:00.000-05:002008-09-16T22:34:00.000-05:00The fact that you are so honest with yourself and ...The fact that you <B>are</B> so honest with yourself and that you have a level of self-awareness that most people don't have:<BR/><BR/>A. Makes you awesome!<BR/><BR/>B. Gives you a nice head start on the road to recovery.<BR/><BR/>C. Makes you awesome!<BR/><BR/>D. All of the above. :-)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19374727.post-68022474762604132922008-09-16T20:45:00.000-05:002008-09-16T20:45:00.000-05:00On another note: It is really hard to be so damn h...On another note: <BR/><BR/>It is really hard to be so damn honest with myself.<BR/><BR/>A.k.a. Not an easy post to write.Party Girlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03803387514872401131noreply@blogger.com