I's got nothing

Or at least I feel like I have nothing to write about, hence the lack of writing.
Or, maybe I have too much to write about and I don't feel like taking the time to write it all out and explain.
I dunno.
It's definitely one of those.
So. I will give the Cliff notes version of what's up, what's new, what's old, and what's just generally been happening. Or not happening. That's for you to decide.

My "friend" Nick and I no longer talk to each other. Since my birthday disaster cry-fest where I was yelled at and belittled he never apologized nor has he tried to make contact with me. I called him after the incident and we talked for about 2.4 minutes. It is really interesting to see who your friends are in the end.

I finally downloaded the last of my pictures onto flickr. I hope to have the rest of Mykonos and NYC up for you all by the end of the week.

Because I know you're dying to see them.

Since returning from Greece I've been in a funk. Understandable, but blech.

I always knew I wanted to travel, but now I know that it is a need. I need to travel. It is a part of me. It is in me. It is not a want, but a need.

Therefore, I booked a trip to Budapest. I will be there the week of Thanksgiving. I booked it last week.

Mama was not thrilled about that news when I told her last night.

She'll get over it. Slowly, but she will.

The reason she wasn't happy is that her daughter (a.k.a. her only daughter. Her baby girl.) is moving away, thus the news that I wouldn't be home for a major holiday was not welcomed.

I go to my grad school interview with the director of the Public Policy program on Friday. Hopefully by then everything will be finalized and I can start to apply for housing and jobs.

I applied for scholarships and also tuition stipends. Cross fingers, pray to the gods, that those come through for me.

Because I have enough debt.

Between this job being over and grad school starting I will have less than two weeks to move, find a job, and start grad school.

That could be stressful if I let it be.

I am trying really hard not to let it be.

I really wish I wasn't taking classes this summer.

I am uberly burnt out on classes.

But I told them I would.

So. I am.

Although I love my job and the people I interact with everyday, it has become painfully obvious it is time to move on.

So, I am glad the job didn't come through for me.

Life is funny how it works out.

I've been getting regular updates from Mr. London.

I both love his emails.

And hate his emails.

I love hearing from him.

I hate that he loves it there.

This too shall pass.

(That I hate that he loves it there.)

After grad school I plan to join the Peace Corps.

Get back to me in two years, though. My life changes too quickly to really make that a firm commit.

After the 27 month minimum commitment I plan to work for the Peace Corps and eventually start my own organization.

I want to start an organization for women. Teaching them a trade or showing women that the skills they already have can make an income for themselves and for their families.

With the skills and income I hope to show that they then are a valuable contributor to the community and a vital part of the world and to their families, thus they are worth more than the cow on the hierarchy ladder.

I also would like to change the media images and messages women are shown and given here in the U.S. I think we are just as guilty of harming our women and causing permanent damage, we just do it in a much more subtle way.

I would like to start dating again.

Or at least have a boy toy.

But, I don't really want to commit the time and the amazing amounts of effort it takes to find someone who doesn't make me want to gouge my eyes out and kick myself in the head.

Plus, I will only be here for another two months.

Plus, the last couple relationships ended because of moves or transfers not coming through, ect. I don't need that drama a third time.

But, I would really like a summer fling.

Dilemmas.