Saturday, May 17, 2008

...and it all comes tumbling down

Oy.
Oy.
Oy.

The week I have had.

Friday, yellow fever. The effects were felt instantly. Instantly.
A weekend of aches, pains, and the feeling of a bowling ball hitting me in the head.
Monday, I felt perfectly fine.
I start typing up my internship research while listening to my Portuguese tapes.
lalalalalalalala ...happy, happy.

Knock, knock, knock on my door.

Oh, hello, Mr. Postman. It's my visa info.

It's my visa info which has been denied.
I applied as a tourist, but had to show sufficiant funds, so I included my financial aid letter. Now they want a letter from the school and org and I also had to get a criminal background from my police department. (which is rather boring as there is no bakground in crime.
They are requesting more info, but I don't have time to mail it all in. The latest I can leave to go to the Consulate in Cicago is Thursday. So, I wait to hear if the guy who I am traveling/staying with has been denied (again, as he has already been denied once)...as of Wednesday he has not heard. So, my girlfriend and I take a road trip to the Chicago Consulate.

WOW.

I am sure they deal with all kinds, but wow. Talk about stoic..and mean.
I was denied not once, not twice, but yes, three times.
Four times altogether at this point.
As a tourist, (two no's) as an unpaid intern, and then I asked since I have the tickets and housing if I can just disregard this and go as a tourist. No. No. No. No.
The intern was no'd because the org is a U.S. org, but is not registered in Brazil, therefore, it is not recognized, therefore, absolutely not. "It would be no different than working out of your back yard..."

I was in considerably good spirits considering, still managing to laugh...until about an hour outside of home base. ...or many, many long hours later.
Then the reality of the situation was hitting me: not graduating, all (ALL) the money I have spent, life. Yeah.
I email the org director to explain the situation. I was very professional, nothing nasty at all, but explained how frustrated I was.

Friday I get a nasty email from org director, (She is currently out of the country) that I applied wrong and what this will mean to her and her organization...nothing about what can be done for me.
I choose to ignore that nasty email and did not respond to it.
She later sent another email and apologized.

Anyway, yesterday I called the travel co to see about my plane ticket...cancel $150, change the flight, but can only be changed within Brazil and there are no flights between now and November, they are all booked, and it would be $150 to change the flight. However, he told me to call a visa service and laughed that I went to the Chicago Consulate because they deny everyone and travel companies/visa services do not go there.
So, just FYI.
Called the visa service, they laughed at my foolishness in Chicago. Fine. So, $80 additional non-refundable dollars later, I mailed my visa request to DC and it will be taken to the Embassy. I will know if I was denied by Tues/Wed of next week and will get it back, if approved, by Monday, 26th. I am going home on the 28th, leave June 1.
No pressure.

But wait, there's more.
(C'mon, there always is.)

Trying to register for one of my required classes for the fall, can't. I audited micro (the required course) this spring. Spoke with the head of econ and the professor who teaches the class before finals. Prof asked if I took the tests. Yes (lie) if you were graded what would you be getting? B (lie)
I don't lie, but I felt cornered, off guard, and was just telling them what I thought they wanted to hear. Bad, bad idea. He asked me to give him permission to contact my professor to verify the above. Sure.(Why the hell did I agree to that?)

Tried to register again yesterday, nope. Emailed professor, nasty email later wondering if I was "that lady in the hallway who did not fulfill my end of the bargain...but he was not sure if I was or not. I need to see him."

So, continue the lie and be denied. Lie and say, not me, didn't take the tests, can't meet cause I am trying to leave the country and am not sure I will be in town...?
Which one should I choose?

See, cause here's the thing, without that class, I won't graduate. I will not stick around for another year for one class, which is only offered in the fall and finish comps in 2010. No way.

So, blogger friends it has not been a good week.

Yesterday I was ready to chuck it all. But, yet still positive. Go, figure.
Yesterday I also started to get mad.
No tears, yet. (Key word. Something tells me it will be ugly when they do decide to flow.)

The org girl is telling me not to give up. She has other options if Brazil does not work out for my internship. Haiti, maybe. Or I can stay here and do my internship...without a director, yeah, that might pose problems.

And lots, and lots of time, energy, and money lost.

Do I want to go to Brazil for the entire summer to learn and experience another cultural, of course.
Do I want to volunteer for the girl, not really. There have been so many problems and issues beyond just the visa. The guy I am to room with has no desire to help her, he is still going to Brazil because that's what he was planning to do, but wants nothing to do with the org.
anyway...so. Yeah.

I am ready to quit school, sell everything, travel where I can, and get a job and re-enter the real world again.

Any idas?

6 comments:

limpy99 said...

The only idea I would have is not to go anywhere near Haiti. Bummer all the way around, but I have my fingers crossed that this will work out and you'll get to Brazil. And graduate. That would be good too.

ptg said...

Oh hon....if only hugs (and shots) could travel via the 'net.

If throwing in the towel were the right option, then it would be a hard decision, no? So obviously, not the right one (at least in this case).

I really, REALLY hope things work out and you get to Brazil. And graduate. And then get a kickass job and recall these days with an ice cold beer and get to say "but I made it through." We all know you can, and you will, and I really hope everything works out.

I'm officially crossing fingers, and toes (but not on the left foot cuz I can't do that side, but the right toes are crossed)!

Tom Serafini, Actor to the Stars! said...

Y'know something, Sport? Absolutely every single person you will ever encounter has this very same problem. The details are very different but it's the same problem. You know what usually happens? It sucks, it gets worse, then gradually it all starts to unravel itself into something manageable. Your only job here and now is to simply stick it out. No great words of wisdom here, sorry.

Ride it out, kid, it'll be alright.

puerileuwaite said...

If it takes you "seeing the world" as part of some misguided "blind comparison study" to FINALLY realize just how good you could have it with Yours Truly, I understand.

There will be a time and place for us to have our "white picket fence / 2.5 kids / it was YOUR turn to stay sober and go to little Johnny's soccer game" life together.

I shall simply be "right here waiting" for you, as I wait right here and endlessly listen to "Right Here Waiting" by the immortal Richard Marx.

Party Girl said...

Limpy: what, is it the civil unrest? The drugs, the disease, the U.S. State dept warning not to go there? Ah, c'mon where's your sense of adventure?

ptg: yeah, not a fun week. Not at all. It will work out the way it is supposed to, it always does.

tom: we all have life going on, just going on differently.

pug: Okay, okay. Travel the world, drink and enjoy, there can be sex, but there will not be any multipling.

Party Girl said...

Limpy: what, is it the civil unrest? The drugs, the disease, the U.S. State dept warning not to go there? Ah, c'mon where's your sense of adventure?

ptg: yeah, not a fun week. Not at all. It will work out the way it is supposed to, it always does.

tom: we all have life going on, just going on differently.

pug: Okay, okay. Travel the world, drink and enjoy, there can be sex, but there will not be any multipling.